Day 1 : Scratch.

A rainy day today.
I felt the same as the weather.
My father told me that he was coming for my report card day.
He ended up missing it.
The last time my parents attended my report card day was 3 years back.
Sad to say. But i sometimes really wanna escape from this prison in disguised.

BUT!
Im feeling real good. Why?
Im gonna be able to drive soon. I cant wait.
I can go anytime, anywhere.
Its the holidays too! So i will not be down.
Anyways, i dont get whats with the twilight fantasy. The book may describe Edward as good looking. But the guy, robert is not good looking.
He can't act! A FACT!

Kristen : I know what u are. (Not surprise, tired-looking, another-ordinary-day looking face)
Robert : Say it. (Dull, lame, sexually horny)

You Tell ME!

OMG! Im so pissed.
My computer is retarded. So we brought it to some shop to repair it.
But then, grrrrrrrrr.. This pisses me off. ITS A MONTH ALREADY!

Can't u freaking fix a computer in a day?
Ish. I missed so much. I cant even listen to my ipod. Since i couldn't charge it.
No facebook, twitter, blog, songs, assignments.
You know i could die, right?
Im now secretly using my bro's comp to blog.

Anyways, i was happy a few days back. Singing on stage creeps me out.
Don't even talk about singing, even talking i could faint.
But i manage to sing, eveyone cheered (To make sure i won't pass out).
Haha! oh dang. No pic to upload. My comp is not with me. But im gonna put some random photo from the internet.
YES! (Pumps elbow to my waist) Exams are so over. LOL

I Hate Controversies.

Last Friday, i woke up. It was a holiday. Straight to the shower. Party that night. CANT WAIT!
But, i didnt feel like going. tired and guilty.
I still went to Jck's house meeting Jia and Sue there.
I can't seem to find any transport home that night. Afraid? To death!

I played so hard. I was tired in no time.
6pm came in a flash. As i sat in the car to the party that night, i was thinking about transport.
I didn't wanna ask my friends, they would feel the burden on their shoulders.
I kept quiet. i planned to go to Jck's house after that party. So someone could fetch me from his house which was nearer than the party.

But at the party, we found out that Jck didn't have transport back to his house. Stuck. His mom couldn't
Sue volunteered. Her dad couldn't.
Jia called her dad. Her dad said YES! I end up at Jck's house.
Dad was on vacation. Bro wouldn't agree to fetch me. Mom was ignoring.
I begged. 12 midnight.
Still at Jck's. Planning a sleepover. i called my bro. he told me he was on the way.
I leaped. Not literally, but in my heart. I heard a honk.

Running to the car. i saw my mom in the driver seat. Shocked.
I walk to the back seat. Bro and sis was in the car too. I couldn't believe it.
They were pissed. I sat quietly in the car all the way home. Sleepy, i jumped on my bed and slept.

Drowsy

Im feeling tired all the time this year.
Getting weak? Lack of sleep? Brain problem? Getting old?
I have no idea which.
As i am typing now, i feel super drowsy and tired.
I could actually put my head on the table and fall to a great nice sleep.

I really really really hope that when i wake up tomorrow, ill be hyper.
Why am i this way?
Did i miss something tat i did last year?
I take naps in the evening this year, sometimes even catch up on sleep in school.
What did i do last year that made me so cukoo?

Ohhhhhh! This is cracking my skull.
With Jck abusing me on a daily rountine. Punch my arm, hitting my head.
I really dont feel good.
Stuffy, hot, sticky, tired and a super headache.
Needless to say, exams are near!!
Im really piss-y right now!

Dreams.. Err. Nightmares!

First of all, this post has nothing to do with my dream yesterday or today.
Anyways, i only remembered a few of my dreams. Now? Maybe 3 of them.
My dreams are usually nice. But obviously, who could avoid nightmares?
Funny thing is i had repeated nightmares.. Does it mean something? Im scared!

First is the dream where, strangers i couldn't see followed me to an empty alley.
I fell on some rubbish stuff. And i woke up. I feel like i was in some Batman Movie. TRUE!

The second dream.
I was at school standing in front of the mini zoo in primary. Hmmmmm..
Not funny. Scary! Why? Cos i went to school the next day and did the same thing as the dream.
Normal, eh?
De javu.

The last i could remember is kinda scary.
Im in the middle of nowhere. Looks like a desert.
BANG! I heard gun shots. I did not look anywhere. And ran straight to the toilet.
I was with my family.
AND THEN! I saw.. my uncle with his duplicate.. Weird!
There in front of me 2 uncles.
YES! Exactly the same.. With the mustache and the bald patch.
Freaky!

Anyways, i have lesser dreams recently.. Maybe im just too tired.
I have been sleeping for 5-7 hours a day. I know many of the teens do that.
But i think we need 8 hours of sleep right?
As what all the bitches would say 'WHATEVER!'

Life is NOT so interesting after all

Sitting here.. Doing nothing!
Flashbacks came flying to me. Sighs..

I remember so clearly, my 1st grade teacher Mrs Angeline whom shouted at me. For?
2 reasons:
1. I marked my book myself.
2. I left my books in the locker and went to the 2nd grade with all the books still in it.

Then, i thought of a funny-but-not-so-funny-incident-that-moment. 5th grade
A girl in my class was super hyper!
Grabbing and shaking my memory hard, i think it was 5 of us in the class waiting for the teacher to come in.
There was a permanent stain on the whiteboard. I stupidly asked her to wet the duster and wipe the board.
Once she did it, the whole board was black and wet!! Dumbo young me. I had fun.

Mandarin class was also a great memory. 6th grade.
Sitting in class acting like i dont care about the teacher and the subject.
And acting all so cool in front of the teacher since she was new. I tricked and bullied her but it never came to her mind that i was lying. I lied. About everything..
She called my friend a fisherman, and tap my other friend's head with a pen.
Sounds funny, huh? Its true!

Why did all this memories came flying pass my eyes?
Its not so interesting after all. Does it mean life is actually boring?
It might all be over anytime. Short?
I say its just a walk at the park.
You start. U trip. U climb. U fall. U skipped. U screamed. U play catch. U leave.
Leave forever. Never coming back again... Think again.

Funny to ME!!

I was talking to my frens bout hanging out. On MSN..
So i went to C, here's the convo.

Me: eh, when can u go out? *her msn pic appears* woah! wat kind of pic is tat?

C: burung gagak (a crow)

Me: burung gagak lebih cantik (crow looks better).. itu macam burung gagak kena cabut bulu (looks more like a crow getting de-feathered)

C: ahahahaha.. hold on its her sis here

Me: *watta heck?!* lol?

So all the time i was talking to her sis.. OMG!!
Anyways, kevin jonas is choosing nick and joe as his best man? errrrrr... okaaaay
i can imagine nick but not joe..

Hmmmmmm... Wondering

Woah!
Something stupid happened to me today.
I was using the computer half-way and suddenly an old friend of mine talk to me on MSN.
I quickly switch to see what was he talking bout. Guess what?
He said 'ass hole'.. YES! With a space in the middle.
And guess what i did? I didn't reply! Ahahahahaha.. Stupid me. Shud have copied it and showed everyone.. xD

A minute later, he said 'hey chin'
Only people that i'm close with calls me chin.. Hmmmmm..
Could it be him or maybe someone else hacked into his acc?
Could not be a stranger. Or it maybe..
Weird thing is, he appears offline and has no picture..
I have no idea what was going on.

I don't really like him actually. We talk less since we were 12.
There's not much topic when you talk to him.
Boring person.

I shall just pretend nothing happened! Lol..
Its weird!!!

Should I or Should I Not?

I have been secretly blogging from my friends almost a year.
I didn't know how that happened.
But once, my friend, Sue almost saw my blog link that i kept in my wallet.
And i freaked out..
Like a freaking happy monkey!

I have been thinking of releasing my blog link to my friends.
But there are so much insults and nags
About those 'kids'.
Hmmmm.. Should I or Not?
I think i'll just wait and see what happens.
Hey, they say word spreads fast,
I agree.. :)

Mall Day!

Ouuhhhh! So tired..
today's wenz's bday. i jus came back after 10 hours at OU!
when i jus arrived, clever jck told me to go to mcD when he is in starbucks!
freaking wasted 15 mins of my life.
Ikinda pity her today! cos she was only with a friend.

Woah! I spent all my money. i have no notes in my wallet. only a few coins.
I need to learn to save more. @@
At least i had fun, doing nothing, eating, watching movie, singing, screaming.
But time did pass really fast.
I tot a minute ago i jus arrived at OU and now im back at home.
Happy Day tho!!
:)

Am I attractive to HATERS?

Woah.. My bio teacher was mocking and nagging bout his usual dilemma to us.
when suddenly he turned the topic to me. tat was one crazy bitch..
Lol. Er... He say i am and won't have any fun in my life.
Btw, he is a counsellor. Shame on u Shamsul!
Is tat how u encourage your students? By shoving them in the mouth..

Anyways, i am so excited for this friday..
Pfffffffffffffff... Bdays everyday

u are a BITCH!

R.I.P. missy
A bitch is usually beautiful but u are...
Get a life... PLEASE!

Life is A Drama!

The question is to get mad or just shut it. Everyone knows that i'm the guy that is always getting into a fight. Doesn't matter if i started it or someone else did. I always tend to keep quiet when someone makes me angry. Most of the time i'll laugh it off with them. When ppl call me names that i don't like, i just pretend to love those names.

Nerd, Geek, Bitch or anything else. However, when someone pushes the limit, i'll go crazy, literally. I don't want it to happen that way but it comes naturally. Pfffffffff.. Life

What could i do? And now i noe why they say girls are wild. Not all but some!

Social Netdontwork for me!

I find social networks like friendster, myspace, facebook, twitter and many other social network dont work for me..
I feel bored whenever i login to my page
it feels like im wasting time.
i dun even update them... only when i sign up i update my profile
but after on, i dun update it..
I do use it to check details of my friends ==
Not spying..

however, i found facebook as a fun website!
Lol.. i have no idea why am i so attracted to this website that used to be the-lamest-thing-ever for me
im so super addicted to it now..
Oh! and me and my frens will have a reunion party soon and i have an award show to go on 18 july..
Anyways i wanna wish the Falcons cheerleader from my skul a very good luck in Cheer '09!
Hopefully they get top 3.. but i doubt it.. SORRY FALCONS! but hehhe..

Time Flies!

Time flies!
I have always used that phrase over and over again..
But this time I do really mean it
As i sit here with my baby cousin at the back of me playing with the window, i realize so many has happen since the last post.
Yes, i have not post for quite awhile. That's bcos i was really busy, honestly.
With the homework and exams. Now its the mid-year holidays and im not trying to finish my unfinished work.
What a waste of time. I have no idea why, but after the exams, i have no feeling of doing anything related to school.
I guess that's normal!

Anyways back to my topic of many things happening in a short time.
A new niece, one exam, one test, 2 feuds with 2 friends, H1N1 virus, one fabulous trip while one more cancel which is the Japan Trip bcos of H1N1, picking 12 subject for a open certificate then the government limit the subjects to 10 only and so many more!
About the fights with my friends, i do not know why i tend to fight more.
But everyone fight, right? My friends always make me feuds a big deal bcos im more of the physical type where i literally backstab them without the drama.. Lol!

No more ideas to write anything now. Hopefully, ill be posting a new post soon when i have ideas :) ! Chiao!!

Memory Loss

I actually forgotten about this blog!
Thats why i havent update it for almost a month.
But anyways, i was talking about my first bday party then i had a second one on the real date.
It was great, the 2nd, i got forced into singing and giving a speech in a T.G.I. Fridays!
Which i did not do... It was too embarassing, standing on a chair. But at least i gave a short speech and thank my friends for coming.
We also watched Confessions of a Shopaholic which was really funny and i had fun karaoke-ing!

Talking about memory loss, EXAMS!
Exactly a month later my mid-year exams will begin.
Pressure!!
I have so much work to do and so many projects.
After going into the 2nd last year in high school, its a tough life.
Hopefully i wont have any memory loss during the exams..

16th B'Day!

My birthday is coming soon! Its on the 29th which is 2morow.
I actually have 2 parties, if u can even call them parties...
Its small but at least it will be meaningful.
Btw, its my 16th Bday but it means nothing in my country! In the US, 16th birthday is a big event bcos they can drive but in my country i need to wait till im 17.

My first party was held yesterday at the clubhouse in my residential area.
It was so fun! I had friends over but only friends and no relatives. They are great friends bcos i knew that the party was gonna be boring for them bcos i did not do any extreme planning.
Even calling for pizza was done last minute! But i actually had fun. Mayb it was my bday tats y i was so excited the whole way.
We swam, jacuzzi-ed, table tennis-ed, gym-ed, walked all the way to the clubhouse and back.
They did not make a single complain. They came to my house later and went home after. Most of them came to the party with me after school riding my bus!! At least my bus driver did not mind.
There were 7 of them, they are; Emily (May), Felicia (Jia), Rachel (Sue), Raihan (Zul), Shaun (C.S.), Kevin (H.Lueh), WenZ (Tze) and Jck (Sng).
These names are not their full name bcos they need their privacy too!!
But still easy to be recognize who are they even with these names scrambled up.
U guys know who u are. Thanks for coming!!!

They are great friends and hopefully they will remain as good friends even after we grow up.
Surely, my second party at the mall would be fun too! Cant wait..... Huhu!

And as promised, my new haircut pic.

Hair gone! Tiny pic so it wont be too detailed. Lol! Sry if it looks ugly.

Backing off.

A New Day & New Cut

I just had a haircut last week and its kinda shorter than what i had asked for but i dont mind cos it looks good! Haha... I'll upload some pics of my new hair at the next post. Hopefully, u guys think its nice to.

Anyways, 29 March is my BDay! 16th birthday!!! But in our country 16 means nothing like the US's 16. My country is either 18 or 21. However im still planning to celebrate bigger than last year's tiny party with 5 friends. My dad wouldnt agree sponsor me. So i have to dig into my wallet to find some money to try and celebrate with more than 5 friends this year.
Chao!

Exams are OVER!

My monthly test just passed.
I have good results! The evil side about that is, everyone hates you bcos of your marks and starts calling you names.
But! At least im happy. Cant wait for the coming Japan trip on May.
I actually have been there twice, once when i was too young to grab a camera and the other one was last year. I have some pics in my file that i wanna share with everyone! These are my last year trip to Japan photos.

Sakura flowers (Cherry Blossoms) taken by ME!















Me (the hot guy at your right) and my brother somewhere in Hokkaido

A Flight To ?

During the late of May, i will be travelling to Japan! Unfortunately, with my school. At least my friends are gonna be there. This is the first time ever my school is organizing a trip to overseas. SHOCKING!

Next 2 week is my test. Time just flies. In a blink of an eye, 2 months of 2009 has passed so quickly. However i'm not sadden by the test because it will define my future and hopefully its a nice one but im sadden by the speed of time. Time is just accelerating too fast. Hopefully, one day it slows down and that day will be filled with joy and fun. Can't wait for the trip! Yay!

Chasing Nothing

Thinking about my future, just gives me nerves and butterflies. I have no ambition. You know when you were young and everyone says that they wanna grow up to be a doctor, engineer, pilot and teacher? I was that kind of person.

Never will i thought that when i'm 16 i will not have a dream to chase for. Jobs now are unbalanced. They are either boring but with high pay or fun but low wages. If there is a fun job with high pay, tell me! A handful of jobs are fun yet your money will be pouring in but face the fact, not everyone will get jobs like singing and getting paid or jumping off an airplane with money inside your pocket. My results don't worry me but the thing is, what is the point of getting good results but do not have any aim. Its like chasing nothing. Hopefully, my dream job will one day appear in my imagination. Even if i could not find a job, maybe i should just choose a job that provide a happy yet stressful life.

Talking about chasing, tomorow is road run in my school. I'm not sure how long is the whole path. Some teachers say that it is 5 kilometres, some 4. I love long distance run but not too long. I will most probably get nothing but i rather have a long distance run than a short distance like 100m. I do not fancy most sports but running is something fun to release stress though. It makes me admire the surrounding and makes me think about my friends, etc.

My Awakening Experience

Here are some pics that i want to share with the world!
My family and I visited Chiang Mai, Thai recently. We also went to Laos. Kids there were snatching food from us. We bought a little junk food for them and they were in chaos when they saw it. It made me realise this really happens. Its not a movie! They were waiting for tourist at the riverside to get food from them. Funny thing was a lady actually manage to line them up but still, they grab more than 2 each.


Kids from Laos trying to get food



A tiny village near the Golden Triangle
( Thai, Laos, Myanmar )

A Spin Around

I recently celebrated Chinese New Year. Reminds me of the fast moving time. My family travelled to Thailand. My expectation was low because i have a friend from Chiang Mai who say Chiang Mai is filled with trees and mountains. It was overall a fun and good experience. I learned a lot of Thai history. Even though i know that i wouldn't remember it after a month or two but i think its nice to know. Interesting too. It always hit me hard when i return from a vacation. The feeling of not wanting to leave so early. I really will miss this trip for another few weeks until get over it. Sigh... I hate this part of the travelling. Sometimes i don't want to go but when i'm there i wouldn't want to come back. I know many people experience this but i have no idea why its just worse for me.

Fortunately, my parents decided to buy a new computer (not for me but for the family to share). After my last post, they shockingly approved to buy one. Maybe they read it! But its impossible. Nobody knows about this blog for now except for my rude brother who went to the history page and saw the link to my blog but i don't think he will remember the link as long as i delete the history everytime i finish posting. My parents wouldn't waste their time reading my blog anyways.

My blog is still dull but i'm a newbie! I promise that i will put some pics in as soon as i can. Maybe some pics of my Thai vacation. And by the way, i went to Laos too! It was a sad country. But thats another story.

Lies and parents

My parents promised me last year to buy me a new computer. Sadly, i was 10 months from a important examination so they promise to buy me the computer after the exam but i really needed it because i need to do folios for the exams. 10 months has passed, no computer. The results for the exams is out after another 2 months, i had straight A's and now they promise me to buy a computer. It never came. Yesterday after another month, we went to a computer shop and i was so happy and excited but my parents were finding reasons not to buy me the computer. I knew it before i left home to the shop that i'm not gonna go home with a new computer only to use my 10 year old laptop which neck has broken and needs support for the screen to stand up straight. Mouse is not working well, memory full, speed super slow and heat from it can light up dry sticks.

When can i get a new computer? I guess never. I had to earn my own money and get it myself when i'm in college, i guess but i am happy to have such parents because i know i'll never grow into a person like this if they never treat me like a stranger everytime i ask them a favour.

Try Outs!

Wuuuuuuuuuuuh...
I have been trying to create a blog since 2007 but always never manage to update it.
2 blogs have failed for me and hopefully this one works out for me!
Ever try doing something as perfect as possible but it turns out the other way...
I guess everyone know how that feels... Truthfully, i know i won't update this blog everyday but i'll try and update as frequent as i feel. Maybe a post for a week or two. Blogging is so ultra famous now. If you don't have a blog, you will look like a left out person but as i am saying this some people have gone to another level. I guess i'll never catch up with those type of people and i'm only 16!!

Tiring day was a good description of today. I will be having a week of holidays in conjunction with the Chinese New Year celebration! Yay!
Today, me and my friends, Emily and Sim Kuan, when for a swim. I had to cycle almost 2km to their house uphill!! Cycling was OK for me but when it comes to the swimming ( i did not swim for almost 2 years now ) FREAKING hurts! The swimming pool was Olympic Standards and i could not touch the floor with my legs because i wouldn't be breathing by then. My friends starts to complain that a guy is stalking us so they suggest we swim across the pool! GREAT SUGGESTION!!!!! I swam and had leg cramps and i almost freaked out but luckily i responded quickly by stopping and trying to float but then my legs hurt even worse now so what i did was i swam backwards and when the pain goes off a little i quickly swam towards the side of the pool. With that much drama, guess what? Nobody notice that it even happened. I asked my friends and they say they thought i was swimming because i swim that way! I was P.O. ( pissed off as hell ) but at least my friends continuously asked that am i sure i am OK? Which later gets a little annoying.

At least i had fun! Walking with bikes up and down flights of stairs, down hill, racing on bikes to my friends house, hugging Sim Kuan's dog. Sometimes thinking back of little things just makes your day. So i pledge to try my best to think about the happy times everytime im in a conflict. Have fun blog readers! Appreciate things that are small but you never notice how much they are worth! Thanks Emily and Sim Kuan for spending time with me and making me think of how important my friends are for me!!!!!!!!